Not today

Years ago when my heart was shattered to pieces and pounded to dust, I cried my heart out and shouted to the heavens, “DEAR GOD, WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS???? WILL THIS AGONY EVER END? SPARE ME. Spare my heart.”

And taking away all that is tangible and mortal (it was already shattered to pieces and pounded to dust), I silently wept.

“Lord, ang gusto ko lamang ay ang taong mamahalin ako ng buong buo. Yung taong may balls. Yung taong hindi takot sa hinaharap dahil takot siyang mawala ako sa buhay niya. Yung taong nasaktan na para maintindihan niya ang pagdurusa ko. Yung taong matukso man, ay hindi magpapatukso. Lahat ng iba, kering keri ko na.”

I guess he said, "Wag muna ngayon, Cor."