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When someone tells you, "You don't know exactly how I'm feeling."

They are probably right.

Not today

Years ago when my heart was shattered to pieces and pounded to dust, I cried my heart out and shouted to the heavens, “DEAR GOD, WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS???? WILL THIS AGONY EVER END? SPARE ME. Spare my heart.”

And taking away all that is tangible and mortal (it was already shattered to pieces and pounded to dust), I silently wept.

“Lord, ang gusto ko lamang ay ang taong mamahalin ako ng buong buo. Yung taong may balls. Yung taong hindi takot sa hinaharap dahil takot siyang mawala ako sa buhay niya. Yung taong nasaktan na para maintindihan niya ang pagdurusa ko. Yung taong matukso man, ay hindi magpapatukso. Lahat ng iba, kering keri ko na.”

I guess he said, "Wag muna ngayon, Cor."

End.

The only thing we lost was time, not emotion. This will be the last of all there is to say.

I'm really sorry if I hurt you. But all the things I've said this time, I meant them. This is not the same as those previous fights we had when I say things out of anger. But in all sincerity, I hope these new friends will get you somewhere. They are just as much a reflection of who you are now. They have changed you into someone I do not know anymore. You maybe more than this, and your story I'm sure runs deeper. But your actions toward me, the one you chose to get your way, will keep you held back, and lonely.


So thank you. I hope you heal someday, and that your ambitions are realized. I will always love you and care for you. I may have showed it the wrong way but that is the truth. I may not have trusted you since then, but I hope you realize that trust is earned not by eloquence, but by real righteousness.

This is it. Everything ends here. Mark my word.

Her Highness, Marshal

This is my cat, Marshal. She is the most annoying, most clingy and super spoiled cat I have ever had. (That is because I never had a cat before.) LOL

I was never a cat person. I used to think that cats are boring because they don't run around the house, they don't fetch balls or anything I throw, they don't wiggle their tails when they're excited and most of all they always stare at you as if you did something wrong. So freaky. But after I rescued this cat, everything changed.

Marshal likes to play hide and seek EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. Like every time I come home from work, I always have to look for her in the bathroom behind the toilet, inside the box I still haven't thrown, sometimes she even manages to get inside my shoe closet (I have no idea how she does it). That's our playtime. Marshal doesn't wiggle her tail but she purrs a LOT. She runs around the house too when I give her some catnip. She goes crazy I tell you (all cats does, I think.). But the best thing I love about her is she's very affectionate. She loves to cuddle with me and she watches me sleep (and Iko on Skype) at night. She follows me around the apartment. Every night when I brush my teeth, she comes with me and I let her drink straight from the faucet. (She drinks from the toilet too. Disgusting.) She is just so adorable and I love her so much.

And about her name, I named her Marshal cus I thought she was a boy. Then I noticed her boobies growing.  Too bad. I could have called her Lily instead but it's too late now.